It’s midnight. I find myself walking in circles in the terrace.
Under the serene starry night, I can hear the rustling of the leaves of the coconut tree, the distant beckoning sound of a train, the screeching of an R1 bike as it comes to a halt…
Yes, they are sights and sounds of a city life.
As soothing as the night sky and the cool breeze is, my mind refuses to breathe easy. It is wandering arbitrarily, with no sense of purpose, no direction.
The far off running train is seductively enticing me to that place call home. Somewhere in my sub conscience, I can hear the soft tunes of a celebrated song call ‘Home’ … resonating.
‘I'm going home,Back to the place where I belong,And where your love has always been enough for me.I'm not running from.No, I think you got me all wrong.I don't regret this life chose for me.But these places and these faces are getting oldSo I'm going home.Well I'm going home…’
Home!
The tiny word brings up such tenderness in ones heart, its as if one was touched and deeply moved.
But Why?
When we speak of home, we often understood it as a place, an abode where our family resides. It brings up a feeling of being connected or something you identify with.
Its absolutely right.
However, is that it? Are family ties, unconditional love, acceptance all that is to Home?
I would like to think not.
I would rather have a far more definitive, complete, concluding, conclusive, nailed down understanding of Home.
I know I am home, when I have arrived.
Right now, am still a wayfarer who most often than not, hitch hike on rides, rub shoulders with fellow travellers, at times uplifted-at times crestfallen by their stories, touched by the ordinary, awed by the miracles, learning, observing, discovering, inspired, heart-broken, and still far from having arrived.
I have not taken the first step towards Home yet.
I am yet to discover myself.
26 years, educational qualifications, a pretty job, an equally good life does not mean I know anything about myself.
Yes, its pretty scary.
No wonder am circling this terrace!
But hey, I do know one thing though… I am curious to learn. And, that will suffice for now.
I got a long way to go. One day, I’ll stop walking in circles.
I’ll be Home.
Amen to that.
