I took an off from work today.
Thought, what is the harm in chilling out by my own? (Of-course, in the comfy of my apartment).
I was almost successful, except for a call from office demanding me to get online and on the phone for a meeting. Sigh, who ever said freedom is our right :)
Anyways, I was cheered up by a feel-good movie called ‘Kate and Leopolt’. Made me come to terms with my girlish dreams and fantasies again. Oh yeah, it was a make-believe movie but it made me feel alive again! So what the heck!
Its every girl’s dream that a knight or a gentleman (as mentioned in old Barbara Cartland romantic novels) appears in a white majestic horse, scoops her up or mounts her in to the horse with him, and they both ride away into the horizon. Whew, just the thought of it, makes me melt.
Yes it’s every girl’s dream. Even the fast paced, career-driven woman sometimes loses herself in that wish. Even the most brusque, matter-of-fact, tyrannical head-mistress has a soft spot.
A woman develops a defense mechanism around her as she dealt with the cards life throws at her. Often, her attention being taken over by survival instinct; the soft, gentle, safe-zone of her fantasies get bulldoze into the background.
Its moments like this- watching a movie and getting lost in its character, which brings back the softer side.
It brings back the saner side of life. Yes, its an irony that a fantasy can do that!
And you know what? When you come out of the fantasy, you are not remorseful because reality strikes back. You are actually rejuvenated!
Who needs shrinks or counselors when one can just get lost into your fantasies and come back with a bounce!
Friday, February 02, 2007
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Benumbed
' You dont lose something you never had'...this line cropped up in my mind, troubling me instead of comforting me.
It sent a chill down my spine and a piercing pain into my heart.
Perusing through the writings for a loved one , i suddenly had this premonition that i may lose him.He may no longer be a part of my life.Thats when this thought cropped up 'You don't lose something you never had'.
Have, Had? Is it the same as 'owning' something?The dictionary does uses words like acquire,possess,procure, occupy,own,get,hold.This does sound like something could ' belong to you'. But it also uses words like enjoy,accept,teem with!
While the former descriptions sounds abominable, the latter sounds nice, kind and gentle.
I was more confuse than ever.
So what is to 'lose'? What does one mean by 'losing'? Do you just lose or do you lose something?I am sure they do not mean the same thing.
Well, to my physical-education teacher 'to lose' would mean you failed to win,you have become poorer than what you already are in mind, body and spirit.
To a philosopher losing would mean 'another stepping stone to success'.
My pastor would say 'losing means the time is not right for you to excel.In God's time, it will happen'.
To my mom, 'losing is an opportunity for you to be kind to another being who needed something more than you do'.
Well its not a very pleasing subject to ponder upon.
A part of me despises myself for coming up with such thoughts.
Its strange that such a thought even ocurred. I have always believed that i am made of stronger straw and i do not 'belong to or associate with' ....
Is it just a facade?
I am chill to my bone...
It sent a chill down my spine and a piercing pain into my heart.
Perusing through the writings for a loved one , i suddenly had this premonition that i may lose him.He may no longer be a part of my life.Thats when this thought cropped up 'You don't lose something you never had'.
Have, Had? Is it the same as 'owning' something?The dictionary does uses words like acquire,possess,procure, occupy,own,get,hold.This does sound like something could ' belong to you'. But it also uses words like enjoy,accept,teem with!
While the former descriptions sounds abominable, the latter sounds nice, kind and gentle.
I was more confuse than ever.
So what is to 'lose'? What does one mean by 'losing'? Do you just lose or do you lose something?I am sure they do not mean the same thing.
Well, to my physical-education teacher 'to lose' would mean you failed to win,you have become poorer than what you already are in mind, body and spirit.
To a philosopher losing would mean 'another stepping stone to success'.
My pastor would say 'losing means the time is not right for you to excel.In God's time, it will happen'.
To my mom, 'losing is an opportunity for you to be kind to another being who needed something more than you do'.
Well its not a very pleasing subject to ponder upon.
A part of me despises myself for coming up with such thoughts.
Its strange that such a thought even ocurred. I have always believed that i am made of stronger straw and i do not 'belong to or associate with' ....
Is it just a facade?
I am chill to my bone...
Thursday, January 18, 2007
From a Distance-( Bette Milder)
From a distance the world looks blue and green,and the snow-capped mountains white.
From a distance the ocean meets the stream,and the eagle takes to flight.
From a distance, there is harmony,and it echoes through the land.
It's the voice of hope, it's the voice of peace,it's the voice of every man.
From a distance we all have enough,and no one is in need.And there are no guns, no bombs, and no disease,no hungry mouths to feed.
From a distance we are instrumentsmarching in a common band.Playing songs of hope, playing songs of peace.
They're the songs of every man.God is watching us. God is watching us.God is watching us from a distance.
From a distance you look like my friend,even though we are at war.
From a distance I just cannot comprehendwhat all this fighting is for.
From a distance there is harmony,and it echoes through the land.
And it's the hope of hopes, it's the love of loves,it's the heart of every man.
It's the hope of hopes, it's the love of loves.This is the song of every man.
And God is watching us, God is watching us,God is watching us from a distance.
Oh, God is watching us, God is watching.God is watching us from a distance
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